I went to my school. today is the day where we will get our SPM result. of course, I was nervous to know what my result will be. All my way from kota marudu to my school, I've been praying to God to give me strength and patience to accept what ever my result would be. and yes, I can't stop telling myself to accept what ever 'kezzutan' I will get.
Miss Zuhrin look at me deep in my eyes before she passed me my result slip. And then she said to me with a smile, ' congrats Gib...' I looked down to my slip, unnerved, I feel like the whole world around me is shaking very hard. Somehow I smiled back to her with the strength that left. without saying anything, I left.
5th april 211
It has been two weeks since I get my result. along these time, I've been trying so hard to think in a very positive way in every aspects. Oh my God, You put me into such a great challenge!!
Firstly I would like to thanks God for what He had written to me. I don't know what but I'm sure He knows whats best for me.. trima ja la suma kan^^ and sure, thanks to the people around me who keep supporting me during my hardest time. Dad, mum, siblings, friends and teachers. everybody. If not you all, I don't even know if I can stop crying myself!
I've tried to be very positive. truthfully, I've never been into such a disappointment and failure. I used to fail, but this time is the hardest-to-accept failure. I don't know. maybe this is God's way to give me a lesson that life isn't always bright. sometimes we have to fail, to experience how is it feel like to be at the bottom. right? yet, I will never give up. this failure has bring me down so deep, while I'm looking at the brighter side of this 'nightmare', I promised to myself, I'll bounce back higher!
2 comments:
hey gib. hehe...ur such a brave man. like it very much. good luck in ur next stage of life! ;)
Hi there :) I'd like to share something with you, if you don't mind.
Getting to where I am now....was not as simple as one would have thought. Achieving the result that I had in SPM, I thought shamelessly to myself, life is going to be easy like this, BUT, I was wrong. Thinking that I'd be able to get just about anything afterwards, led me to apply for medicine. Ahhh, how everybody just love to become a doctor. Regardless, it was decided that I was not cut out for it. Depressed, I resort to my final choice: matriculation. I thought that I've learned my mistake, and so I've decided to become a pharmacist instead. Still, God told me that I'm not to become one. In the end, with a mind as positive as I can make of it, I applied for Chemistry major. Everybody would have thought of me like this: what would I become with that kind of major, where there will be no future? Still, I believe in God, and now that I am here. I know that all of the failures I had previously were vital to prepare myself for today. Having said that, I've not ended my journey just yet. I still have more to overcome :)
So, the point is: do feel blessed for everything that you have experienced. As long as you are still living, there are still more opportunities to come. Keep on believing in God, for He knows what's best for you.
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