LOVE at my point of view.

Hellooo!! As always, It took me quite a long long time to post again. and yeah.,  I'll tell the same reasons over and over again. So please get bored and tell me some other new reasons to give. By the way, Selamat Hari Raya to all my Muslim friends and family. Have a blast and of course, do take care of yourself yaa :)

    When I do a brief research about my previous post, I can conclude that almost 70% of my post talks about my life, specifically my studies. which is normal for a growing teen like me. But just like all the normal teens out there, I do have this other part in of my life too. That part, that can drive you crazy and makes you feel that the world is yours. That part that can makes you smile ears to ears when that one particular person text you or call you. And the two of you will talk and laugh for hours and end up doing your assignments at last minutes. But you never regret it because she/he is all that matters. This is what they called it love. A girlfriend/boyfriend whom you will share the most about your daily life and routine. I do have that part in my life too. I used to have one.

Yes. Today I'm going to talk about love. But not my love life. hahaha. As you continue reading... This is how I spell love.

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#1 Be truthful.
    I am very much agreed when they said that trust is the foundation of a concrete relationship. It is true that trust is what we need to keep that relationship going. If you can't trust your partner, then why holding to that relationship? BUT, the process of trusting your partner starts with being truthful to yourself, then to your partner. Don't Lie. Because believe me, Lies can't hide forever.

#2 Be firm to your principle.
    Love can be a blooming beautiful rose. It can impress you, calm you with its aromatic fragrance. Yet, love if uncontrolled, can be the most shining sharp samurai ( ok I know this is too much ) that can harm you, gives you the most dreadful nightmare you can ever imagine. It can kill you. So when a relationship is way too hurtful that you can't stand it anymore, learn to let yourself go. Give freedom to yourself. We can always find another love, but we can never find another self.

#3 Never believe in forever
    Many lovers nowadays make promises ( baru 7 hari kapel suda janji forever ), they hoped too much and believed to much. They promised to stay forever no matter what. Through the rains and storms ( lah sangat ). But heyy... please don't. Always remember in mind that our future lays in the hand of our Creator. He knows whats best for us. So when you learn to surrender everything to God, believe me, you won't get disappointed.

     I don't know why I came out with this post. But here it is. A simple reminder to myself, that if I want a good relationship, go for it. Do what is good and never consider doing what is bad. Relationship isn't just about sharing mutual romantic feeling towards each other. Its more than that. And I believe each of us do have our own point of view. keep it. hold on to it.

    As for me, I've learned that I can't always make it the way I wanted. Holding on is just an option. But at some point, I have to realize that I have to let myself go.

Let yourself free :)

   

   

another sweet and sour page

*blowing all the dust*

heyy.. It’s been a while! hoho. It took me quite a long time to post in this blog and for the very times, it is all because I’m too busy living my life. I’m giving every possible effort on chasing every dream that speaks to me every night. At the same time, I’m enjoying my life as a son, brother, friend, student, and of course, a servant of God. 

    There’s a lot happened in my life recently. And I’d like to thanks God for every beautiful lines that He had written for my life. Joy, happiness, pain and sorrow in my life are just like the black and white keys on the keyboard. When they are played together, we can hear the most stunning and beautiful song that touched our heart!

    My second semester examination result came out last week. I can’t thank Him enough for giving me strength and guidance throughout the semester. Instead all the dramas, struggles and tense, I still managed to maintain the distinction result for two consecutive semester. Another 5 semester to go and yes, I’m still in the Dean list. Clap! Cap! Clap! hoho :)

    It’s been 3 years now, and I’m still struggling with my hand’s issue. Yes, Dystonia(a kind of nerve disease). During my latest appointment with le’ doctor, he told me that he will make an appointment for me to meet Prof. Goh. I don’t have much information about him. But for sure, when I meet him, we’ll be talking about my hand. I’m still holding on that hope, when I can hold a pen and write, just like how I used to do.

    Ohh… I’m already 20 years of age. Thanks God for leading my life ever since I was born. And to every great people who came into my life, those who stayed, and those who left, thank you. Every single of you have taught me, lifted me up and shaped my personality and yes, who I am today is because of you… you and you! hohoho.

    On 23^rd of April, my grandfather has gone to meet the creator. Days before that, I stayed in the hospital to take care of him and to be alert of every single information from the doctor. I saw him in pain, cried and struggled. And I don’t have any words to describe how broken I am to see him in such a pain. I cried but I refused to show it in front of my family member, because I want to show them that we have to stay strong. The moment he look at me, I smiled to him. Yet, I’m desperately hoped that I can listen to his voice. But I know he can’t speak with his mouth filled with the ventilation tube. He struggled enough I know. But God love him more than we do. I’m sorry Aki, for I never tell you in words how much I loved you. But I do. I really do love you. How can you gone, if you stayed in our heart forever? May your soul rest in peace Aki.

    So that’s the reality of life. We learn and we grow up. With every breath that God gifted to us, we struggled in our life to get the best we can. Of course, we struggled to approach the creator as near as we can. We welcomed people into our life, at the same time we stepped into other’s life. At the nearest seconds, we might lose that chance forever. We never know. But one thing for sure, it will come. Are you ready? I’m afraid I’m not.

    Somehow life goes on. Right? yeahh! I believe there’s a lot waiting ahead of us. So don’t just stand there and wait for things to happen. Take a small step forward and see just how beautiful life can be!

Updating myself?

Just a few weeks ago, I went to Ranau to attend the Karnival Nunuk Ragang held in the heart of Ranau Town. Nothing is special about the carnival. actually. Just a crowd of people. spending some precious time with their family, or friends, or their loved one. laughing. you know. But what caught my attention at that time was, this...

This is a picture of two siblings selling balloons during the carnival. I looked around them trying to find out if their parents are around. But, no. their are all by themselves. and that time was 10pm. so, along my way back to KK that night, I kept on thinking about how strong these two kids are. they got my respect. God bless them.

Enough with that. back to the present, we are almost to the end of 2012. I guess, most of us already have some kind of list, you know.. " what I want for 2013". or maybe, "my target for 2013". isn't it? no?? I think you should work on it before new year!


I've been spending a few days, maybe weeks, listing all I want for 2013. this.. and that. and after a long and tiring (tiring lah sangat) process. I finally come out with a list. a secret one. hohoho... So, along the process, I did some or more reflection about, what I have been doing in 2012? what did I get? did I managed to fulfill my 2012 wish? It's been a year, did I really grow up? (physically, I didn't get taller, but wider. haha). These are some of the question that I used in order to make my 2013 wish list a good one, achievable and yes, realistic!

Last year (2011) was a nightmare to me. I go through some critical and serious depression about my life. specifically, my studies. I stopped my studies in matriculation and I was like, what is happening in my life? I almost lost myself.  And it goes on to early this year. I went through some medical procedure to find out what is really happened to my hand. It takes me months and cost. after going through medical procedures,  the neurologist told me that I might have Dystonia. I was like, knocked down real hard. I almost gave up as I can't accept it. why?? hahaha...

Just a week ago, my first semester result came out. And for the very first time since back then, I feels like I'm alive! I almost can't believe it, I get a distinction! There is no words can tell how happy and grateful  I am. I thank God so much for He showed me that I should, and I must believe in Him. No matter how hard, how much it hurts, keep believing that He will always be there for me!

Hoho... so, that is how my life have been in 2012. I have learned a lot in 2012. I met new friends. I have a life!  Thanks God.  Yet, I believe that there are so much more to learn. I will keep reminding myself to stay humble and cheerful. And to keep believing in Him.  I'm turning 20 by 2013. I don't know what is waiting ahead, but I'm ready. how about you?

Reviving and growing up!

hello! hai! kopivosian! It's have been a very very long time since my last post to this blog. I guess its because of my new life at college. yeahh... I'm a college student now. after such a long full-of-quest vacation, finally I've chose to go on. well.. that's long time ago. yaa.. I guess.

so, what is it in my mind now? so many! ogumu kopio! one of the vital issue is about my study, of course. like I mentioned in my last post, I am now taking diploma in management with multimedia in multimedia college( a multimedia university branch and a telekom malaysia college). to be honest, I'm struggling so hard to adapt with the new subject here. I mean, I used to be a science stream student, and now I have to change my focus more on management stuff. In certain extent, I'm starting to love the course. but I guess its too early for me to jump into a conclusion. yaa.. I'm only in first semester. there are 6 semester to go, which equals to 2 years of study! of course, I aim nothing but for the dean list. AMEN.

It's been 2 months since I officially become a management student of multimedia college. I would say a lie if I've totally into management, and that I have totally removed those medical course dream from my heart. I didn't. but what makes me going on is the way I think about my future. the means of living is anywhere. I don't have to be a doctor to be success. what matters is what I do about my future.and how am I going to be a person of value. haha. talk too much huh..   I'd like to give my very special thanks to all of my college mate, especially my course mate. for they have taught me a lot during this short period of time. I'm really glad to know you guys. and I have to confess that becoming a small part of the team make me feel so great!

life is about choice. you can choose to move on despite of all the failure and disappointment you are facing  or just stay there, crying about how life makes you feel unfair. I admit that I'm too young to understand and to accept all that have happened to me few years back. But I always speak to myself that I have to move on, stop looking back and wonder what I could have had. and so I chose to go on, how about you?